We’ve said it before and we’ll say it again – our hearts break for Courtney Stodden.
The 22-year-old reality star has chronicled her healing process from a July 2016 miscarriage, which left her and husband Doug Hutchison devastated.
“I love you my sweet angel,” Stodden tweeted to her unborn child after confirming the news.
“God is embracing you.”
Stodden decided to shave her head in early August in an attempt to start over, but she told Entertainment Tonight that doing so wasn’t as cathartic as she had hoped.
“I’m just feeling a little lost right now,” Stodden admitted.
“I thought shaving my head would give me some kind of relief from the pain I’ve been experiencing… but it hasn’t.”
Since shaving her head, Stodden has worn an array of wigs and turbans, and acted out on Instagram.
She called out Brody Jenner for making fun of her on The Hills reunion, then slammed Selena Gomez while wearing a hot pink wig and carrying an unlit cigarette.
Stodden said she’s doing her best to get back to her old self.
“I’m wearing wigs in order to try and make myself feel like I used to feel before all of this stuff happened,” she revealed.
“I almost feel like I’m trying to find myself all over again… or maybe find myself for the first time in my life. I don’t know.”
Aside from shaving her head, Stodden purchased a Reborn Baby at the suggestion of her therapist, who explained that some women buy the dolls in order to overcome such heartbreak.
“I know it may seem a little strange but my therapist suggested that having him may help me cope with my loss,” Stodden told Instagram followers.
Stodden told Us Weekly back in May that she and Hutchison were forced to share their pregnancy news early.
“It’s a bittersweet time for me right now. I’m dealing with a lot of stress and emotions surrounding life and its ups and downs,” she explained.
“Doug and I weren’t planning on going public with this so soon. I’m only four weeks along in my pregnancy. But some things are out of your control.”